Save Me!! The Negative Thinking

OMG, what a feeling..no clues, no idea, no thought, no brain, no no no...helplessly, unmotivated, unprepared, undone, untold, unsure, undo undo undo...going to fail, going to kill, going to scream, going to burst, going to hell, die die die..."Life is short, make it fast", "if someone can do it, no wonder why i can't"..."the road is long, not short"..."i plant money, but my future looks dark, because it's time for El Nino"..."someone can make a different, but i am different"..."why should continue, when you have nothing"...bla bla bla...full stop..